Just Keep Swimming...

I am trying to follow Dori's advice, although I continue to feel the tide rising and trying to sweep me into the dark, deep sea.

My dad broke his leg. It was a severe break right below his knee. The break warranted surgery and a three night stay in the hospital. His jeep is totalled. He cannot drive for two months. Please pray for him and my mom.

I have been on the road a total of 7 out of 10 work days in the last two weeks. I am feeling exhausted and rather overwhelmed by all that needs accomplished since I have been out of touch with the staff, let alone my family. Self doubt is rearing it's ugly head and although I trust Him, I am wondering why and what is His plan regarding this position? Feelings of inadequacy to not only my team but more importantly my family make it hard to breathe. There is a lesson I am to be learning here. I am certain God is using this to prepare me for another chapter in my life. Unfortunately, I don't get to easily skip over the chapters I don't particulary care for. I am sure you have felt the same way at some point in your life. A friend of mine who is a faithful blogger has the best playlist. I honestly go to her blog just to listen to her playlist all the time (especially when I am cleaning the house). Right now she has a song on there that I can really relate to called "Fragile" by Delta Goodrem. Here are the lyrics from the chorus:

Sometimes I feel like I'm alone
Sometimes I feel like I'm not that strong
Sometimes I feel so frail so small
Sometimes I feel so vulnerable
Sometimes I feel a little fragile
A little fragile

While this song resonates with me in such a real way, I must keep my eyes fixed on Jesus, the author and perfector of my faith. It's one of those things I know but I gotta DO!

One a lighter note, Scott and I have been attending a new church called Living Hope. I cannot put into words the transformation I have witnessed in my husband. God is so amazingly good!