I am only human. In my human flesh, tonight I failed. As a Christian, I am to be a living sacrifice (Romans 12:1). This means I am to die to my selfishness. I feel like I failed tonight since I just wanted the girls to go to bed so I could enjoy "So You Think You Can Dance." Yep....there, I said it out loud. Much to my selfish dismay, the girls were completely out of sorts tonight at bedtime. Bedtime issues completely rock my world. It isn't always because I want some downtime for myself, but it because I don't know if they are playing a game of "mommy manipulation" or if whatever is the issue truly is an issue. "I need a drink." "My throat is killing me. Can I have a cough drop?" "My tummy is hurting so bad. I need a Tum." ..... ACH!! You don't want to be soft nor too hard. Parenting is so hard....
2 comments:
I often struggle with this same thing. I LOVE my kids but I often LOVE when they go to bed so Mike and I can finally talk, or watch tv, or whatever. Some nights I get very frustrated at the constant sickness, bathroom, water, one more book, coming out of the room, talking, etc. It sure is hard being a parent. Just when you figure something out the kid has grown out of that phase.
Cara, my Christian friend, Linda, a mother, grandmother, and full time first grade teacher just wrote a book on parenting. I've devoured every word and am banking her wisdom. She has been the greatest influence on my teaching career. Her book is called Parenting From the Heights. She gives real practical wisdom in parenting and raising children with a heart for God. You can google it, or her (Linda Williams and Ann Wiggins co-author, her daughter.) I'd be happy to send you a copy. It is not a manual but a credible source for some wisdom.
I know parenting can be a challenge but I am hoping that God grants us an opportunity. Hang in there Cara, you are a great mom! I often envy (not in a sinful way) your relationship with your girls. Your post about tenting in the living room with Anne of Green Gables brought tears to my eyes. It is something I would do.
You are right, we all fail. What counts is getting back up and living our next moments for God's glory. I love you Cara!
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