First Day of School

My sweet baby Kate started first grade last week.  My little Anna Banana started Kindergarten today.  It is hard to know exactly how to put into words what I feel in my heart. Today, being at home, all by myself, knowing both girls are in school makes it all click!  My babies grew up way too fast.  I sit here full of some regrets and guilt is trying to crowd my spirit.  There is also a feeling of excitement as I think about them learning, spreading their wings, to see them put into action things we have already taught them.  There is also a feeling of fear.  The fear of trusting someone else to spend so much time with my little ones and the fear of how peers will influence them.  I don't know whether to cry or what.  Crying isn't something that is easy for me to do...so I just remain in a somber spirit, without much motivation.  It is like I am just sitting, waiting for the time to pass so I can go get them and bring them back within my safety net.

Dear Jesus,
Watch over my babes today and everyday.  Be with this Momma too.
Me