Monday, April 25, 2011

Life is so full....

I wish I was an eloquent writer so that I could put into words what is going on in my heart and head.  Unfortunately, I just turn the thoughts, words, randomness all over in my mind like a bingo tumbler.  My life is so full right now and sometimes I feel like I am going to bust.  My mother-in-law moved in with us this past weekend and already I have been blessed beyond measure.  Yes, my house is a complete disaster and I am seriously having all kinds of issues with this.  Serious issues.  However, as I open a new box or tub I am just reminded that these things are not just her things, things that I selfishly worry will crowd out my things, they are treasures that tell the story of her life.  Some are wrapped with love in musty smelling rags.  Some are dissheveled because of the mad dash to pack.  Some will have to be tossed because of being in a dark, damp, and disgusting basement for the past 3 years.  Some I don't like and just want her to add to the "garage sale" pile.  But as we unpack or open each item, it brings her back to a specific time and place in her life.  "Oh, Sharon got me those for Christmas when Lori was a baby."  "I had that for my grandbabies."  "I have had this since I was in high school."  "This was a wedding gift."  Through this, the Lord has strongly convicted me of my pride and selfishness.  Strongly convicted me.  Can you even begin to imagine being told or asked (I like that word better...asked) to sort through your stuff and get rid of some of it?  Now I understand some of ya'll aren't the sentimental type.  But I am sure you still have treasures.  As a mother you have things you have saved because you cherish the memories tied to a picture, drawing, or even toy.  Through all of this I have had more meltdowns than my mother-in-law.  She is a stronger woman than she thinks and therefore I have a deepened respect and love for her.  What is even more grand is that I know Who her strength comes from.  A few years ago, she lacked the backing to have this kind of strength but because God is faithful He brought her back into His fold.  Praise the Lord! 

2 comments:

Flo said...

Thanks for sharing Cara... It's hard :-) I am the sentimental one, I want to save everything....

I experienced going through stuff... back 5 years ago when I went home to Indonesia and had to sort through all my stuff because my parents were moving to Australia... It was hard... Esp since I have limited space allowance to take what I want back to the States...

I have to do it again this summer as my babies are growing up....

flo

Ashley Fisher :) said...

I am the same way! I want to save everything that is sentimental!

So glad it is going well with your MIL.

You are so awesome for being so giving..

Hope you have a great day!